You think you know, but you have NO idea....
"You don't talk about longevity, you just do it because longevity is a matter of fate; it's a matter of eventuality. We are a culture that is now so aware of how things work because we've had a certain experience now with bands, with culture, with pop music, with pop culture, that we all want to talk about longevity and what causes it. There's only one thing that makes longevity and that's longevity. I'm amazed at how often people say, 'You're here to stay. You're gonna be here in ten years.' How do you know? You don't. Ten years will tell you..."
I'm in love. Wow. It's been awhile since I've actually been able to say that and actually mean it. It's crazy. The emotions that have been going through me the last couple of days is inexplainable. For so long I've been afraid to let my feelings out when it comes to this subject on a deeper level.
Tears have been collecting in my eyes throughout the day and for once, I haven't been afraid to let them stream down onto my face. It's insane how just one person can have this affect on you. The sound of his voice is so beautiful, as is his soul. Guy's like this don't come around to often so it's completely understandable how I let myself get so involved so quickly. When the words "I believe in you and me" slowly rolled off his tongue and passed his lips, I was caught. Believe stuck out to me most. Many things have been said by many males but for some reason, this really hit me hard...in a good way. Normally, I would just blow it off but like I said, hearing words from such a beautiful soul has an amazing effect. It's more than just a relationship. It's like, the things that you face in life, good or bad, has a reason. Those words gave me a sense of belief in myself. I've always tried to build others up completely putting myself on the back burner. I'm ready for me now.
This weekend, I wasn't myself at all. I was someone better. For once I decided to take a chance on love. True love. Maybe the days leading up to by far the most amazing day of my life thus far, happened just to prepare me for what was to come.
When I talk to him, I'm at peace. The stress and anger that has filled me recently just leaves my body and I become relaxed. When I hug him, I don't want to let go and by his actions, I don't think he wants to either. For those 10 seconds or less, our souls become one. We are each other. We don't have to say anything because we know what the other is thinking. I've waited patiently to find someone like this. Patience is virtue. The look in his eyes tell me everything will be alright. Serenity. That's the best way to describe this feeling. His touch is so soft and gentle. I know I'm safe. I'm looking forward to the future...
I can assure you it's not who you think it is. I'm sure this doesn't make sense to most of you but it's not suppose to. These are the words that are reflecting my state of mind, body and soul...
congratulations! being in love is one of the best feelings in the world!